Struck dumb.

Of course, there's a huge long, ugly, sordid tale behind my position. However, like many, perhaps most, fathers in my position, I am unable to say anything much to anyone for fear of prejudicing my position. (This, however, does not seem to apply to the mother who can do and say pretty much whatever she likes as long as she doesn't deal in drugs, turn hooker, get locked up or overtly harm the kids.)

Oh lord, but I wish I could unload my story, I wish I could yell it from the rooftops, I wish I could confront every bigotted, biased, or simply casually cruel player in this game.